Welcome 2022

 Hello and welcome to 2022

Life has been tough, i mean it always is tough, if it's too good, i might be dead and gone to heaven already. So let me correct that, life has been same old same old, just as it is supposed to be. Usually i would lament being older, and entering a new year. But this year i am sort of excited for myself. I'm just excited for myself because honestly i am just so proud of me. I've seen so many things happen to so many people and watch how they react to each situation and mann, I don't mean to be rude or what, but fuhh, i'm handling life quite well actually, and that's all thanks to Allah of course, i wouldn't be okay at all without Alah guiding me every step of the way. Anyways, everytime i reflect on everything i have in life, i feel so loved by Allah SWT. Alhamdulillah, i have more than enough.

So 2021 ended really warmly and i believe 2021 is the year of family rediscovery for me. Something has changed within my parents soul, something has melted, i really don't know, I'd like to think of it as Allah's gift for me, for being patient, for not doing anything crazy and getting mad or retaliate. I just took a step back, breath, and took a tiny step forward one step at a time when i feel much better to do so. 

I mean through it all, i always had a very supportive bunch of friends, again a gift from Allah, that always helped me through one situation after another with a good heart and reminding me, of what islam preaches and what would be best for me and my deen. Alhamdulillah.

To be extra honest and out there, lost a few people this year (connection lost, not by death ya), I can count at least 3 people which was all really hard on me initially, but again, Allah with his grace and kindness always showed me why they are not meant to be in my life for this moment in time at least. For now, right now, this moment, they aren't suppose to be in my circle. But I don't know what the future brings. I will accept whatever fate that Allah decides for me. He is the owner of hearts anyways, so, i really don't need to do much other than just stay kind and unresentful. which again i am proud of myself. Not resenting people (which i thought was  hard) actually comes quite easy for me. I don't hate anyone nor am i mad at anyone for any past events that happened to me, once i've processed and digested the entire situation. Like issokay hunneyh, you do youuu, imma do me kinda vibe.

Cause you know what, everyone's trying really hard to just do their best in whatever they are doing. Sometimes things happens, things breakdown, and go down the drain and get really tough, but hey at the end of the road, i know each and everyone of us will get through it. Now that i am feeling much better, i will pray for everyone else to get through their issues too. Like i'm sorry i cant be there for you, but your issue is yours and my issue is mine, we may have had those issues at the same time causing our roads to diverge into a 2 different roads, but hey, just keep moving forward. i cleared my sh*t out, now i hope ur sh*t will settle too. At the end of this winding road, we might meet each other again, or we might find even more amazing people. Either way, it's all good, cause our issues will be behind us.

What a long and unnecessary metaphor, but i like it.

2021 was also a year of making already beautifully bonded connection dive deeper and become much much more meaningful. The time apart that covid forced upon us, made all the meetings and calls and whatnot a bajillion times more amazing. Didnt think i could love them even more, but now i do. I love all my friends and i really truly hope we get to see each other in jannah. Cause they are good people, and they help me become a better person too. 

So that's 2021 for yaaaa, let's hit it 2022, best believe i'm ready for you. Come what may, i will embrace it gladly.