Hakuna Matata

it's funny and kind of amazing how the mind works it takes a passing moment a nonreturnable past a person leaving for us to really appreciate what has already happened in that moment in the past with that person why ? well i guess, it's just a yearning, a longing, to want it again. it's not that we didn't appreciate what has already happened it's just how the moment actually meant enough for us to finally appreciate it that way. its kinda like being thankful that we had that moment

Its scary, horrific even How words you say without meaning any harm might've caused harm might haunt you in the most unexpected ways I keep realizing a lot of things in life recently, and my most recent lesson is, Talk is just talk in the end, because when you are finally placed in the situation which you thought you could handle based on all the plans you made in your head, and all the words you spewed out to people. But once you face that situation itself, all your plans crumble, all you thought you could do, you couldn't, all the reasons you gave suddenly become so ridiculous. In the past, when i think about the future, i would have never ever thought that i'd be placed in this situation. I thought i did all i could to prevent things and i even thought that even if it happens, i've got the mind and heart to face it head on. But now its just extremely laughable, because of course, it happened, and when it happened, id just simply say, all the strong min...

If time was in my control I'd pause and stay stuck in this moment What may come ahead scares me While my doubt continuously taunts me And I feel my strength leaving me So i would choose to pause To banish all my fears To clear away all my doubts And to invigorate my strength. My fears come from deep within the fear of doing anything  fear of confronting fear of bursting and most ghastly of it all is the fear of the ripples, waves and possibly a tsunami as a sequel of my doings. My uncertainty is like a cloud of smoke surrounding me sometimes a light mist sometimes a dark gloomy fog And my strength... I guess it's there slowly but surely building it has to be cause I need it to be _early august thoughts