Random rants: Words coming back to haunt

Its scary, horrific even

How words you say

without meaning any harm

might've caused harm

might haunt you in the most unexpected ways

I keep realizing a lot of things in life recently, and my most recent lesson is, Talk is just talk in the end, because when you are finally placed in the situation which you thought you could handle based on all the plans you made in your head, and all the words you spewed out to people. But once you face that situation itself, all your plans crumble, all you thought you could do, you couldn't, all the reasons you gave suddenly become so ridiculous.

In the past, when i think about the future, i would have never ever thought that i'd be placed in this situation. I thought i did all i could to prevent things and i even thought that even if it happens, i've got the mind and heart to face it head on. But now its just extremely laughable, because of course, it happened, and when it happened, id just simply say, all the strong mind and heart that i supposedly have were gone in an instant. i still cant believe i tripped.

but hey, fate is fate, and its not something we have control over. And we can even be at ease knowing that He plans it, and He knows best. Maybe it is what it is, Maybe its a challenge, maybe just maybe it just meant to be. It could be anything. But the fact that it has happened is unchangeable, and because it already happened, there's always a lesson or a bigger reason which we may or may not see yet, but can be rest assured that it exists.

i learned that sometimes, we can let go, we don't really have to know everything, to be in control of everything, especially the future. It will eventually pan out and turn out exactly the way it should be, the way its meant to be, the way written by Him, which again is at the best interest for us.

So it's okay to sit back and relax sometimes because we just will never know everything and we can be at peace with not knowing. Just trust Him.

Well that turned out to be long. Anyways, whatever i write here is actually always an advise to myself and writing it here allows me to keep reminding myself about these facts, cause believe it or not, i re read a lot of my old stuff here.

Fin_