Life: As the curtains to 2018 falls

- 34 days to 2019

Hello Assalamualaikum

Hey, just felt like typing, like writing. There's this certain lazy vibe hovering around me this week, and i want punch myself for that. Its probably just me, pretending to be all lonely and stuff. My lab is now empty, a lab that used to be full of people when i entered and now, damn, i can hear every little sound, cause i'm practically alone. okay okay, i lied, there's probably a rat in here somewhere too. HAHA. My time here is also about to end, in a few months time, i hope, i'm praying hard for that too. And i just kinda feel like reminiscing this whole year, which was a crazy ride, all jokes aside. 2018 was crazy. To be honest, like really really super duper honest, this year almost broke me. But guess what, i didn't break which is awesome. IN YOUR FACE 2018, you didn't get to me, ehekhekhekkkk. However, i have to admit and i cannot deny, that i have changed, and the changes still shock me and i still can't believe these changes but i can't undo these changes, cause it happened deep within me. Even if it try and act like nothing changed, but what i feel is a whole different story. Wow, that was a lot of "change" word being used. WOOPS. Thing is, i don't give a damn anymore, what will happen, will unfold with time, what's meant to be will be, what God says is your fate, will still be your fate, So the best thing i can do, is to live my life virtuously, do good, be kind, always strive for the better, don't forget God and all will be fine. Frankly, i feel way more mature that i have ever been. So it's true experience is the best teacher. I felt that all through this year. Anyhow, i still have a long way to go, in life, in love, in my prayers, i'm lacking in so many ways, but be rest assured, i'm a work in progress, Well, we all are. To stop progressing is not an option okay ? Sooo, imma just write down what i wrote on the cover of my planner today, just cause i want to.

2018 is coming to an end

It has been one of the most challenging years of my life

I learned about myself more than i have ever known

I fell a gazillion times

And cried a gallon of tears

But I smiled as much

I laughed as much 

And I loved just as much too

2018 has been a year of discovery

May 2019 be better

Bring it on !

I'm ready for the next ride.

Love,

'18 shakirah