random rants; hello 2026

 as i age and continue to work, time seems to fly extra fast, everything is going by in a flash, i feel like rocks keep being thrown at me and over time i cant avoid it anymore and now im buried under it, while trying to remove some of it one by one, just to see some sunlight.

I feel like its funny, when i was growing up, grown up look hella awesome, like they have all their shit together, and life is a breeze, cause they look like they know everything. But apparently, it was either they were good at acting, or my point of view was from a rose coloured lens, or, they actually did have their shot together back in the day, cause damn, i dont have my shit together at all, i feel like i am struggling to manage my work, my social life, my health, my growth, my familial relationship, being a daughter, being an aunt, being a sister, oh god how i wish to be a cat. 

me saying all this while actually sitting in a cafe on a sunday and trying to get a head start to my work on monday cause i have registered myself for a talk and feel like many time will be gone and i need to manage it well. i also met my supervisor yesterday and my oh my, she is super woman in my eyes, but i love hearing stories from amazing people cause it gives my motivation and inspiration, not necessarily to follow their footsteps, but to do better, to step up my game and hopefully improve day by day.

anyways that is my random rant for 2026, life's tough, but its life, not hereafter, so go ahead and struggle and work hard for the life is a test and herefater is what remains. 

fin

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