yahhh,, today is the little girl's birthday, yup3, the one next to me, but now she is at school and she is also going through her midyear exam, i dont feel like wishing her at facebook, so Happy birthday little one~!
Once, my words were rivers, flowing freely into your hands, laughter echoing in shared spaces, secrets blooming in the quiet. Now, the echoes fade to whispers, half-heard, half-held, half-lost. Some of you have vanished like dusk, and those who remain their ears are full of everything but me. I try to speak, but my voice dissolves, drowned in the weight of what’s missing. I used to offer my heart in handfuls, but now, I keep some for myself. So I sit with my unspoken thoughts, not as a prisoner, but as a friend. I am learning the language of solitude, not as a burden, but as a gift. Even in silence, I still exist. Even alone, I still grow.
emmm...ahaha..[sje nk sebuk] those percious time i'd went through started exactly after SPM ends, made me realize much how important them to me.. i should be thankful to Allah for granting me them, the most precious treasure in my school life... They were so good to me. so helpful. so kind. What else i need then. Always give me advices, help, support and love. They make me feel like i'm being cared by someone when my familiy was not there. Thank you so much, for everything that you did. You're the best. posted by my sweetest dearest nabilah~
i discovered something in the past few days, and i thought it was funny initially, but i realized i am actually quite bothered by it. It's a really complex emotion. I feel confused, i am kinda disappointed and i am also sad, but mostly i am actually hella shook. what i feel isn't really directly related to me kind of emotion but a more to, like what happened here ? how did things change this drastically. Talking about change, i shouldn't actually be that shocked, cause what my life has presented with me so far is much much more dramatic than this tiny thing for sure. But i think i'm way too numb, i can easily discredit everything like it's nothing. you know that type of person that shares with you the most sad depressing thing you've heard, but they talk about it as if its just another daily discomfort, i am that person. i have honestly reached that point. But i'm so glad i have very good friends that can see through my stupid facade and actually help me f...
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