Hakuna Matata

 A friend of mine passed today. I've known her for quite sometime. We were never close or anything, but we were always around each other for quite awhile. Her room was facing mine during foundation, she was my course mate throughout degree, and our rooms were facing each other during our master's degree.  Life just seems so futile today, but not in a bad way, it's futile in a sense that it is reminding me of how this world is not the end, we are all just passing through it, to get to the other end of this life, the hereafter. She's a very kind person, and i truly pray that Allah grants her jannah. This incident is just making me reflect a lot on my life and my vain contribution and hardwork towards akhirah. I really dont feel that ive been doing much at all. Do better shakirah Please do better You have time But not for long.

i lied i never did recover not sure if i ever will pain hurts you deeply, wildly into the crevices of your soul i want to be good person maybe even a great person  a person that leaves a luminous print on people's hearts and minds  but now i give up  i barely have a soul to hang on to  and clearly no soul to share  i truly wonder how i keep this facade  this strong, good willed, brave mature, caring, sensible facade  what a character i've carried  but i'm truly tired now  i just want to leave this body  lean back  and watch my life story unfold  I don't want to be apart of this anymore. 

 k done i have recovered go ahead, gimme your best shot pipol ! i want fall, i'll get hurt a bit, but i'll be fine as i always do you can do this same thing over and over again i will still be fine with every pain you give i keep judging you analyzing you profiling you and categorizing you into something less and less important less important emotionally all i have is a basic sense of respect from human to human from a younger person to an older one nothing more than that it's sad but it is what is you cannot hurt people and expect them to take you and love you as you are cruel things, bad things you've done will never be justified no matter how hard you try pain is still pain it will not change into respect it will not change into love pain will always be pain.

 Is there such a thing ? even if there isn't, i believe there is. In this lifetime, i've been through several emotional scams. HAHA I don't trust people that easily, but once i decide to trust them, i give them my everything. like i pour out my heart and soul; and carry whatever burden and difficulties they have with me as well. But there are times when my judgement get the best of me and i turn out getting treated in a way that hurts me deeply. I get confused tho, do you think they did that intentionally ? knwoing it would hurt me the way it did ? or is it logical to claim that it was unintentional? I feel like it would hurt me more to know if it was unintentional. isnt that just way too cruel ? it's basically saying  "i dont know you that much, nor do i care about you that much. i am just being me, and yeah, sorry if that hurt you, but this is me, i can't change me" Hunneyh, people do change, they change for the better, for the people they care and love,...

 I choose to live life with love and full of love, always. Shower people with love, show them kindness, bring goodness, share beautiful moments together, be understanding, have empathy and listen as much as you want to be heard. Most importantly, always try my absolute best. Love God for all the great things He gave you and all the harm He protected you from and all the good He blessed you with. All of which made you the person you are today Love can mean so many things, but i hope we don't ever forget to love ourselves enough to know when we have sustained enough pain that it's time to take step back.  It is important to heal and reconnect with ourselves, reassess our values, have clarity and be more clear-headed at where we're heading in life. It can happen alone, or it can happen together with someone. Loving yourself, is not selfish. It only becomes selfish when we aren't self aware of our state. what is self aware ? it's the state of knowing yourself, all the b...

Like trickling water, like the rising sun slowly but surely, step by step it keeps moving forward embracing the wounds and cold making it painless, making it warm making me forget and making me smile.

Wind is blowing ever so softly cooling my flushed cheeks the air has finally changed. Dried leaves, petals and flowers  quietly being blown far far away while new buds start to bloom day by day with anticipation growing ever so lovely grandiose to the eyes snug to the heart