Random rants: Another monday

Another monday has come again
isn't it weird that mondays are always hard
to recover from the weekends
to get your pace once again
its really not easy

But when an originally difficult monday
becomes even more difficult
with god knows what kind of things in our lives
now that's the challenge
how do you pick your self up when everything is dragging you down ?
how do you keep smiling when all you want to do is cry ?
how do you return to your daily life like nothing happened ?
Sounds hard, but weirdly, most people manage to do it
they can keep their heads held high
they can keep smiling through the day
they can continue with their routine regardless

What everyone else doesn't know are
The sudden bursts of tears in the toilet or at the staircase
The lonely cries that wet the pillows before bed at night
The helpless soul trying to reach out but don't know how
The screams and shouts that struggle to be let out but can't be

This is real
and this is the truth
its the ugly side
the most vulnerable parts
that you don't want to show
but wishes that one would explore
one would find out
one would care enough to read every page
one who stays even after everything
and carry the burden of the pain, the hardships and the struggles together

you wonder sometimes
out of all these billions of people in the world
isn't there one, only one person
that will look at all of you
including all those flaws and ugly parts that haunt you
and think, its all part of your beauty
you are beautiful
you are lovable
you deserve everything in the world.

But you're scared darling
i know you are
you're scared to believe that this person exists
even if they do exist
does it make sense to love another person as such
is it really permanent you ask yourself
most importantly, you're scared to hurt
because who can heal the wounds ?


p/s found you, but cant have you.