Hakuna Matata

You know how what you go through makes you the person who you are today. Well i think something made me build a super high and thick concrete wall around me, and even if the wall is torn, i myself without realizing it, makes thing super difficult for others. I'm difficult, and i am realizing it more and more now than ever I don't know what to do, is there even anything to be done? Somebody, please love me.

Hey again It's probably what's best for you I only want the best for you And if I'm not the best then you're stuck I tried to sever ties and I ended up with wounds to bind Like you're pouring salt in my cuts And I just ran out of band-aids I don't even know where to start 'Cause you can bandage the damage You never really can fix a heart Demi lovato "People will notice the change in your attitude towards them but wont notice their behaviour that made you change" Anonymous To be honest, I never thought I'd struggle a lot emotionally. Since my teens i've kinda taught myself to just think about myself and don't immerse my thoughts and efforts too much in other people's problem, cause i cant handle it and it is obviously better to just mind my own business to save myself from unnecessary heart aches. But damn, life happens. Even as good as i was at minding my own business, i cared, i cared a lot, because i loved. And that lov...

I thought i could make you happy I thought i could make you feel better I thought i was being considerate And that's my mistake I thought i was somebody But I'm just nobody. Dream on sister, dream on. I won't ever be enough But it's okay I'll live I just have to accept I am sufficiently insufficient Sufficient for myself Insufficient to others Don't worry Don't do your best to be validated by other human being regardless of how close you are But do your best so that Allah sees your effort and guide you always.

Hello Assalamualaikum Control  The power to influence or direct people's behavior OR the course of events Control truly is a power, power to make sure things go our way, make sure things go as planned, make sure people act the way they are supposed to and generally having things, events and people to unfold accordingly. However, these things are never really truly within our control. As much as we can plan and direct things the way we want it to, random stuff can just suddenly jump in and shove you in the face. Despite the randomness, the sudden encounter, you gotta face it, you gotta handle it, you just gotta do it. And i think the only way to just walk through it and face any random occurrence in our plans, in peoples actions is just to make peace with yourself and understand that ultimately, not everything is within your control. Some things just go beyond that. Understanding that helped me a lot to just wing it when the times comes. Having a plan and having control...

- 34 days to 2019 Hello Assalamualaikum Hey, just felt like typing, like writing. There's this certain lazy vibe hovering around me this week, and i want punch myself for that. Its probably just me, pretending to be all lonely and stuff. My lab is now empty, a lab that used to be full of people when i entered and now, damn, i can hear every little sound, cause i'm practically alone. okay okay, i lied, there's probably a rat in here somewhere too. HAHA. My time here is also about to end, in a few months time, i hope, i'm praying hard for that too. And i just kinda feel like reminiscing this whole year, which was a crazy ride, all jokes aside. 2018 was crazy. To be honest, like really really super duper honest, this year almost broke me. But guess what, i didn't break which is awesome. IN YOUR FACE 2018, you didn't get to me, ehekhekhekkkk. However, i have to admit and i cannot deny, that i have changed, and the changes still shock me and i still can'...

Hi, Assalam So finally I have reached the land of my dreams and I couldn't be happier. But it was quite an interesting arrival. We took airasia flight to incheon at 2.50pm and arrived 9.20pm so the journey took about 6 hours. Upon arrival we went thru the usual process of immigration and claiming our luggage. Then came the interesting part where i was trying to topup the card for train rides, and altho i kinda can understand what everyone was saying, i couldn't say a word. I just showed my card. Showed the money, and bamm. Thank god the kid understood. Then we went to ask the counter about the train to reach our accommodation for the night and it was already 11.32 pm .The lady at the counter was like, the last train for today is 11.39, u better hurry. And lemme tell you what. The journey was not short from the counter to the train stop, basically we ran all the way and arrived just on time as the train arrived. Luck was really on our side. But the fact that the first thing we...

Let me survive With the memories of today Let me cherish All the little things and live on I cannot ask anything That would be too much I'll just pray to god To decide what is best All these matters are way too heavy To simply throw around As it comes with great responsibility Whatever it is I'll take today with me for many years to come Each smile Each sound Each step Each look Each moment I'll cherish them dearly I don't know if i'm being carried away But for today ... 81023042