Hakuna Matata

 I think we might have grew up with the misunderstanding that if we can talk that means we can communicate but the more i grow up and observe other people and the way they talk, i realize there's an art to communication which can make a lot of situations or relationships much much better. I think i am a direct person, and i have this friend who is also a direct and quite orderly person, which i believe is quite similar to my personality. Through him i realized that, he is so good at communicating in a sense that he can give out his point and be firm with it, but in the most neutral way ever, that everyone easily accept or acknowledge his opinion eventho we are at a disagreement. So it just ends up always feeling like a normal good and healthy conversation, no matter what. Its like, ohh that's how u think, that's different from me, but okay, noted. Ya know what i mean ? This made me realize that i can be a lot more delicate and graceful with the words and sentences i choose ...

 Hi, after the last post i just had something click in my mind and in a way, understood, how to be happy, not always, not forever, but as much as can be.  and the key which unlocks it all is something as simple as being grateful. Being grateful changed my perspective a lot, and also help me accept my reality as it is. Being grateful was initially something i felt when big things happen, but recently i kinda learned the art of being grateful for every little thing and that definitely made me a much much happier person.  at first, it took force and practice, to write down three things i felt grateful for that day, and everytime i felt a negative thought, i caught myself and changed those thoughts to the good things instead.  as an example, my clothes might be a little ripped, so I don't feel good about that, i will then change my thoughts into, my whole outfit still looks bomb !  but now, as those little good things are happening, I'm just thankful, i bask in the ...

I've been saying this sentence since my degree life, and recently i am realizing this fact again and again. Why is happiness a choice ? because you always have the choice to choose what you want, remove what you don't want, avoid what's unnecessary, do things that serve you and excuse yourself from things that don't serve you Why keep hurting and putting yourself in situations that don't serve you? However, to be able to put boundaries and know what you want, i truly believe that you need to fully know your worth. You are of high value and you are amazing. Stop beating yourself up for things you don't deserve. Letting go can be hard, but it just might just be the best thing yet. Keep praying and ask God for guidance and He will always always guide you to the best of destinations, best of people, best of life. Only the best for you. So pray and keep moving forward proudly. You definitely got it ! P/s  I'm happy. Alhamdulillah.

 Is it weird that i feel like i want to move somewhere far far away and start a whole new life, hahaha Life is good though, and i'm happy but, i guess covid makes you want some new things or a fresh start so you would call. But cause it's impossible to suddenly start a new life, i have planned a mini getaway to somewhere really near to where i live to get a fresh motivation for whatever life throws my way next. A little trip and getaway, staying a night really near to the beach, i'm gonna sleep to the sound of waves hunneyh. Couldn't ask for more. Maybe a little sprinkle of new, a little touch of fresh, a little change in routines, a little step towards a different place could be all we need to continue striving and thriving. I'll give an update once i return from the life changing (or so i expect it to be, HAHA) staycation. #fingerscrossed

Life is tiring to be honest, we're always going through something, one after another, and there are some little moments in between where magical things happen which helps keep us going forward no matter what. I think it's amazing how those small magical moments make the view of life so much better.  To be totally honest, i think there is much more downs in life then there is ups, but the ups moment are always, worth the down moments. But the down moments they are hella tough. Like really really tough. PENATTTTTTTTTT

Is it my age, or is it my emotional maturity ? i can feel my mind and my thoughts changing, ever so slowly yet ever so significantly. Change is inevitable and change is growth. It is foolish of me to have once been at a place where i could not accept change. I've also been thinking a lot, reading a lot, gathering knowledge here and there as much as i can. I'm learning so much more about myself than i have ever been before. its like a self discovery journey. I have so much potential to be a better person, but i didnt know how, i didnt know what my problem was. Because i was okay in certain areas of life, i kinda developed a certain arrogance that believed i was okay in everything when indeed, there are places where i had much more to learn.  Alhamdulillah i am finally learning. Selfish, ignorance was a silent disease of  mine, and i am so glad to have finally diagnosed it and now undergoing treatment with self-love, thirst for knowledge and learning to love god. Life is a journ...

 "Life is not just win or lose, succeed or fail, strong or weak. Reducing our life options to such limited and extreme roles leaves very little hope for transformation and meaningful change" Brene Brown "Surrendering is releasing and letting go of the past, trusting god to get you through it and not letting things be without taking a focused and faithful action" Mizi Wahid "Respect means no one has power or authority over someone else. It means we don't have to agree with someone to love them. Respect means to give someone space to have their own opinions and journey. Respect means to let go. Accept. Not judge. Don't react. Don't control. Let be. Let grow. Respect means to work on your own issues. Respect means to not place your definitions on someone else. Respect means to have your own safe life container." John Kim My take on the first 2 quotes is that, life is not black and white. It's extremely colourful, with different hues and shades...