Hakuna Matata

heart, this heart, it beats daily, not yet a beat has it skipped, yet me, myself has always constantly forget the one that allows this heart to beat, me, i cannot blame anyone else for this dementia of mine, but the one to blame is my own self for making choices that lead to this, choices, life has always been about choices, even to the wee bit of life, eat, sleep, do, work, learn, speak, walk, think, remember, forget, love, hate, it was always a choice, one good and one bad, and if today i feel that my life is meaningless, empty, then dear self , has there been a wrong choice in life ? i dare not say that i haven't  yet to admit that i have, oh such a shame to bear, though i know, and i see and i remeber the wrong choices i made, i wish to erase each of it from my memory, as it showers me with guilt, when i remember what i did. when i remember ? how about when i don't. do the guilt follows me daily, hourly, each and every second of my life, though it is a sham

hello assalamualaikum,          actually, it's been over for like almost 3 weeks i think. but i was still out of my mind and unable to think straight * excuses* Anyways, now that i am at my brother's office, i will use this time wisely to update this beloved blog of mine.         to be frank, 2nd year was a year of discovery to me. when i was in first year it was more to adapting, observing, gettin the feel but then 2nd year was like an eye opening era, learning to understand the reason behind everything, self-discovery, riding the groove kind of thing. u know what i mean ? so all in all, 2nd year was amazing ! learning felt better, quizzes were more bearable, life was full of colours, friendship woven stronger. what more can i add to that. it's just simply amazing !         we've been through a lot these 2 years, and to summarize that and also as a sign of my remorse for almost never updating this blog, today ! i will slosh this blog aggressively and return it to