Hakuna Matata

Hi ! From the title, yall already know it's gonna be one heck of a heavy topic here again. But when was i ever light right ? HAHA I think, this is a serious problem nowadays, not just with other people, but with myself too. Social media which is only supposed to be a tool used by us for a certain purpose, maybe reconnecting, maybe gaining knowledge or motivation. But when social media does not give you benefit, its not a tool being used by a user anymore, but the tool is using it's user, to stay on it, to view it, and waste time endlessly on it. That is already in itself detrimental as wasting time with no point and no purpose doesn't get you anywhere. However, the most unhealthy yet very subtle habit that i never realized prior to today, is the act of seeking validation through social media. So many information is out in the open and available for us, however, in social media, it comes in snippets and short moments that don't really give any context. Without the right

 You don't have to be perfect, you don't have to know what to do all the time. You don't always have to be better either, all you have to do is WANT to better, for yourself, and for those around you. Life will not allow us to  take steps forward only, sometime we move backwards, and sometimes we move backwards a lot. But being aware of that reverse or regression in life is the only important thing, because as long as you're aware, it also mean that you want to fix it, you want to be better. Being adults is really complicated, that's why it's really important to take a step back and reflect on ourselves, on how to be better, on what we want, and what makes us happy. Although it seems that we cant control much, but whatever that is within our power to control can bring about significant changes in our lives. My dream is to be a good wife, a kind mother, a wise teacher and attain jannah. I can't control most of these things, but i can definitely do something. E

Dear you Dear me Dear whoever needed this Imagine a real warm hug, the warmest hug you have ever gotten. The kind of warm hug that feels the warmest when you're struggling, when you're in a bind. Well, here it is, that ultimately warm hug, in the form of writing. Dear love,  i know, i know, it's hard right ? everything is really tough right now, it feels like the world is crumbling on you trying to bury you deep in the ashes. I know. You must feel really suffocated, secluded and alone. Everything feels dark and it seems like there is no end to this darkness, to this horrible phase of life. It's really hard, and it feels harder when you don't seem to be able to turn to anybody to show this side of you. Dear, you are not weak if you struggle, you are not a failure if you breakdown, you are valuable no matter what, you are a gem, you are special. I see that, i do, but why won't you see that too ? see how amazing, bright and beaming you are. You can be weak sometime

I think i question myself a lot lately, its good in a way, because i'm reflecting a lot. (Although i still don't know where the heck i stand in a lot of things.) The bad side of things is that, its quite unhealthy for me apparently, cause my brain is way too active, it interferes with some other aspects of life, like my eating and sleeping habits. But other than that, all is good and well. Taking advantage of this time to work out and actually lose weight. However, the good things do weigh more than the bad things. I'm seeing myself in a new light, I'm seeing life in a new light and my relationship with Allah is renewed again. (as usual, iman is an up and down journey for me) I watched a post by asma.nasa telling that we should keep the conversation with God continuously and comfortably. So this morning while waiting for subuh (i'm fasting) i sat down and doa the normal doa and after that i started talking about this and that casually and well it felt good. I guess