Hakuna Matata

1. Love as warm and fuzzy as it could be 2. Happiness, the kind that keeps u smiling even when you want to go to bed 3. Care that melts even the coldest of hearts 4. Affection that makes us feel like the most important person 5. Remembrance that its hard to not think of them in everything we do 6. Effort that surpasses all kinds of ego and time barriers I wish to be and to receive such emotions. I wish there are people willing to share these emotion with me again & again, be it family or friends. I really wish and hope 2020 will be a year of rainbows after the pouring rain of 2019.

Its the first time in a while that i feel like, enough is enough. I have tried to do my utmost best, despite how my feelings kept being crushed again and again. But not anymore. I have tolerated as much as i could and now its time for me to leave. Allah is the best of all planners. I have no idea yet why He sent such great challenges and turmoils to face, but i do not doubt Him. All i can do now, and all I'm willing to do now is just pray. And may Allah help dissolve all pain, all heartaches, all problems and make everything better again. Physically and mentally, i can't do anything anymore, it pains me too much, it kills me inside, i'm on the verge of a mental breakdown. So i'm gonna be selfish and take a step back and focus on living my life, and my life alone. May Allah help me and help us all.