Hakuna Matata

Hello assalamualaikum let's get on with the series now shall we. 4th November 2017 It was my first official experience attending and participating in a conference while presenting my work for oral and posters presentation. SUPER nerve-wrecking. All i could think about the night before was how lowly i am to be presenting in front of all the professionals and experts, like who am i, am i even worthy of this experience. Thankfully at the end of the day, it was way beyond my expectation. Such a great experience, it definitely changed my perception of presenting at a conference. Instead of being intimidated and feeling down, its actually an uplifting sharing session where we will actually get tips to improve our study or some brilliant inputs from experts. Or at the very least we get to share the knowledge with people of the same interest. On top of that, i was lucky enough to have the chance to communicate with great people in the pharmaceutical field. Also had the chance to sha

It's really hard to keep tears from falling It's like something's stuck in my throat I want to explain why I'm sad but it doesn't come out in words. So the tears fall at last, cause only that explains my feelings best. Discovery after discovery, Being treated and tested this way, It pushes me way beyond my limits. I can't pretend to be strong all the time I guess people don't take me seriously. I put my heart out, i make myself vulnerable,  which are things that i can hardly do. Most of the time, I'm superficial,  i don't let people near me beyond what i let them see. I talk a lot as if I'm sharing a lot about me, but no.  I'm just talking about superficial things. Going deeper takes great effort. I am super insecure, so not many people know me in and out. Yet, no matter how many times i try to put myself out there,  ready to build a bridge of trust,  everyone else just tears it down easi

Hello Assalamualaikum Last week i went to Penang for a conference, which was actually only on saturday. But being the kind of person i am, u gotta stay on friday and sunday too. U just have to.So this time around, we kind of mindlessly went there, but one great thing we did was book a hotel at the heart of Georgetown (SUMMERTREE HOTEL). Because of that we were able to walk all around Georgetown to the major attractions as well as stumble upon a bunch of hidden gems. For someone who enjoys art, sightseeing and stuff like that, it would be such a joy to just randomly stumble across a beautiful secluded area and what not. To be honest, most of the time, we had no plan. The only plan we had involved eating. So, it was spontaneous yet filled with splendid surprise kind of trip. Friday, 3rd November 2017 Got to penang by flight, obviously air asia, for th price of like RM60 probably. Arrived around 2.30 pm and directly checked into our hotel. Once we're done set

It's sad, when u feel like an outsider at a place which was once considered home, It's sad, how for once it was actually a source of happiness but not anymore, It's sad. But what's even sadder, is acting like you see a ray of hope when there isn't even the slightest glimmer in sight. There's no hope for it to become home again, There's no hope for it to become happiness again, So stop it. Stop acting like there's hope when there isn't any. The pain and hollowness is just Too real to push away, Too harsh to bury, Yet so beautiful to throw away. Thus it dangles around, With just a thin thread, On the verge of breaking, Yet never broken.

Empathy " the ability to understand and share the feelings of another. the ability to understand and share the feelings of another." so hi assalamualaikum after a really long weekend of doing nothing, i am finally in the mood for work (so last minute already), its currently 10pm on a Monday night, like woahh, time flies. Anyways the first thing that i wanted to do before really getting into work was update my blog, its been to long honeyhhhh. I've been neglecting it for way too long. why ? its because i lost my purpose, i forgot why i started my blog in the first place. i forgot how to enjoy just typing away nonsense and nobody caring, i forgot about the joy that writing gave me. but now that i am at my wits end with no push to move forward, i keep looking for something to do, something to keep me sane, to keep me grounded, to make sure i remember who i am, and here i am, back at writing so yeah, that was on long intro. back to my point about e

I think when you really care about someone, you truly want what's best for them. You smile when they laugh, celebrate their wins and suffer together through the losses. You adore the moments you share and give them enough space to be free. But part of wanting what's best for another may involve accepting that your paths are no longer intertwined.  It's not to say that the moments you hd aren't real, but rather coming to terms with the inevitable truth that sometimes showing someone how much you love them means letting them go.  - Evan Sanders, The Better Man Project I love everything this guy says, this is one of the harsh reality but we need to learn to come to terms with. E verything that happens in life act as a lesson to build us, as a person. So embrace what has happened in the past, what is happening now and what will come in the future. Remember, life is wonderful and beautiful, eventhough you can't see it sometimes.