Hakuna Matata

Today i realized that one of the biggest gift, a parent can give to their children, especially growing up, is trust. To be trusted to do whatever you do, is like being given wings to fly. The confidence that we always needed to push forward in life comes from the trust that our parents give us. To some, it may feel like nothing as it has been given from the early beginnings. But for others, trust feels like a breath of fresh air, trust feel a lot like love too, and trust feels warm and it gives you lightness and joy. sometimes i feel like I've been tip toeing around my whole life, so scared of god knows what.  i never really did anything wrong, i just feel like i might be wrong, that i might do something wrong, i feel like i was born to mess up someday. But nope, i never did anything so wrong. If i was a mother to a kid like me, i'd be proud.  That's when i realized i'm good enough. And now that i've gained the trust that i never got, i feel a lot lighter, and a bit

There are just times when you feel really bad unwanted, unloved, incapable and so much more I'm in that state right now I feel unloved and unwanted as the people who is supposed to love and care for me doesn't seem to I feel incapable cause i am unable to do tasks which someone like me should have mastered long ago I feel weak cause when someone important to me needs financial help, i cant really afford to help And i am angry at myself, for always finding time to waste when there a million other things i could do to use the time Aging does not suddenly make you awesome The worst thing about ageing is the mind I've seen and felt too many things and now my mind wont ever stop doubting myself, doubting other people, doubting the future, always scared and worried for all the littlest and pettiest things. I wish i could break free and live life with a soul of a kid and a body of an adult.