Hakuna Matata

Sometimes, i hate myself. Sometimes, i feel i will never be good enough. In simple words, i feel shitty. Can i step back from the world, from life, find myself and come back later when i feel better ? I just want to sit down somewhere i like, alone, watch people and cry. I just want a good cry. I don't understand why it's so hard to be confident and comfortable being myself. I feel wounded. Like i am not enough if i am not the best. I feel like there's a pressure that i must be more than normal, extraordinary or simply perfect. What the hell is wrong with me? The worst and most annoying part is, i know these thoughts don't make sense, but i still feel that way

Today i learnt a very important lesson. Basically it's a continuation to my previous post, about self worth. All this while, i always doubted my worth depending on how people treat me. Once they treat me a little off than usual, my usual thought process would be  " this person doesn't value me, what do i mean to that person, how could they do this, am i not important to them, am i a really bad person, what more can i do to be better?" But then i realized i kept degrading myself, just because of how they treat me. How they treat me, doesnt necessarily reflect my worth or my values, instead, it reflects their own values, and worth. So reflect on ourselves, to find things to improve, but do not blame ourselves to justify why people aren't treating us kindly. Keyword, reflect, not blame.