Hakuna Matata

 A friend of mine passed today. I've known her for quite sometime. We were never close or anything, but we were always around each other for quite awhile. Her room was facing mine during foundation, she was my course mate throughout degree, and our rooms were facing each other during our master's degree.  Life just seems so futile today, but not in a bad way, it's futile in a sense that it is reminding me of how this world is not the end, we are all just passing through it, to get to the other end of this life, the hereafter. She's a very kind person, and i truly pray that Allah grants her jannah. This incident is just making me reflect a lot on my life and my vain contribution and hardwork towards akhirah. I really dont feel that ive been doing much at all. Do better shakirah Please do better You have time But not for long.

i lied i never did recover not sure if i ever will pain hurts you deeply, wildly into the crevices of your soul i want to be good person maybe even a great person  a person that leaves a luminous print on people's hearts and minds  but now i give up  i barely have a soul to hang on to  and clearly no soul to share  i truly wonder how i keep this facade  this strong, good willed, brave mature, caring, sensible facade  what a character i've carried  but i'm truly tired now  i just want to leave this body  lean back  and watch my life story unfold  I don't want to be apart of this anymore. 

 k done i have recovered go ahead, gimme your best shot pipol ! i want fall, i'll get hurt a bit, but i'll be fine as i always do you can do this same thing over and over again i will still be fine with every pain you give i keep judging you analyzing you profiling you and categorizing you into something less and less important less important emotionally all i have is a basic sense of respect from human to human from a younger person to an older one nothing more than that it's sad but it is what is you cannot hurt people and expect them to take you and love you as you are cruel things, bad things you've done will never be justified no matter how hard you try pain is still pain it will not change into respect it will not change into love pain will always be pain.